There are things I wish for

I wish i could have changed.

ways I could have implemented.

places I’d never had to go.

people I wanted to meet.

Call’s to be made

scenes of life i wanted to hear

Words i could have read

acts of faithful deeds

Days I could have seen early

if I had spent my Nights early

Hours invested knowing the true

meaning of life

Speaking to the one who really cares

Answers that I wanted to say,

questions I Could have asked.

People being saved.

Eternal destinies changed

Meat that could have been eaten

instead of milk that is needed

The root word being could.

in the past tense,

And in the present:  I didnt.

right now makes the difference between the present and the next second

I have got to change.

Things to do before 31st Dec 09

Things to do before the Dec 09.

1. Double up the HC in commited list.

2. Get better on the bass guitar.

3. Grow a full beard.(yes, it was on the 22nd of my 21st list too, 98% done!)

4. Find out about you know who.!~!

5. Convince Christine to hold a cockroach in Canada. (I dream big right?)

6. Get eben to stop saying “you might never know”

7. Finish atleast one DVD without any errors.

8. Praying for an acoustic guitar.

9. Go to the next level.

10.Praying for my own laptop or an SLR Camera.

11. Attend Sabi’s Wedding.

12. Buy a gift for Mom and Dad for their 25th Anniversary.

13. Bless my closest of close.

14. Make another list for the 22nd of my 22nd.

Things I’ve finished in my earlier 22nd of 21st list.

Things to do before the 22nd of my 21st.
1. Find out how many people find “hugs for no reason” as inappropriate. Not many.
2. Learn to ride a scooty. This one is invalid.
3. Grow a full beard.
4. Wear a pink shirt, to show the people that I can change. Done. Dec 31st.
5. Get Christine to hold a cockroach.
6. Get eben to stand in front of Christine Holding a
cockroach.
7. To learn the Bass Guitar and start playing
in Church for the LORD.
Jan 4th
8. To master the Acoustic and to sing along in the right
pitch. And start playing For the LORD.

9. To get my breakthrough. Done
10. To get my own laptop/ SLR Camera.
11. To write a script for an ad. Wrote two.
12. To come up with our Church’s Logo.
13. To get two laptop teams for Church.
14. To get Bavan married.
15. To get Chris(my brother) to grow his hair.
16. To work my way up in the Kingdom.
17. To improve on my literary skills.
18. See if I still like Zombie Girl and whether God has
answered me.
Conclusion:I dont like her anymore.
19. Start my own House Church.
20. Get min100 crowns from the Lord.
21. Buy a gift for Mom and Dad on their Anniversary.
22. Try and Drift in my Car. Done.
23. Give a huge offering to the Lord.
24. Buy something for all my friends.
25. Visit Assam and Delhi and also Sikkim.
26. Make another list for the 22nd of my 22nd.
(will add some later)

You can make a difference

I ride to work everyday, even when I dont have work I am usually on the bike. I can safely say that Indian roads are to be experienced and learned.

Breaking a traffic signal is of no value today. It only costs 100 Rs to get away. Lesser if you want to bribe the official.Trust me, the only time you will NOT consider breaking it , is if you seen cops right in front of you or you have seen too many cops on that particular day to keep you alert.
Im not saying that I dont ever break signals. But I dont do it anymore. And if you catch me doing it, slap me.

I’ve noticed this. If everyone else is breaking the signal you will too even if you aren’t a regular at it.It is very easy to go with the flow. “Why are you doing it? I dont know. Because everyone else is.” For some it doesnt even matter if there are cops, they run away.

Its very difficult to stop at the signal when everyone else is breaking it. Even more to do so before the white line which is drawn before the zebra crossing.

But when you DO stop, you’ll witness a miracle. Don’t bother about the fool honking behind you to get you to break the signal. Wait for the signal to turn green. Suddenly you will see motorists stop too. Why? Cuz one of them saw you do it. And then everyone starts to stop for the signal.

My point is this- If a normal action of following normal logical laws can influence others to do the same, HOW MUCH MORE when you start living for Jesus Christ. How much more when you show Jesus in your life. Dont break God’s laws. Be an example to others.

So are you ready to make a difference today? Start with a smile.

Things to do before the 22nd of my 21st.: UpDated.

Things to do before the 22nd of my 21st.

1. Find out how many people find “hugs for no reason” as inappropriate. Not many.

2. Learn to ride a scooty. This one is invalid.

3. Grow a full beard.

4. Wear a pink shirt, to show the people that I can change. Done. Dec 31st.

5. Get Christine to hold a cockroach. 

6. Get eben to stand in front of Christine Holding a

cockroach.

7. To learn the Bass Guitar and start playing 

in Church for the LORD. Jan 4th

8. To master the Acoustic and to sing along in the right

pitch. And start playing For the LORD.

9. To get my breakthrough.  Done

10. To get my own laptop/ SLR Camera.

11. To write a script for an ad. Wrote two.

12. To come up with our Church’s Logo.

13. To get two laptop teams for Church

14. To get Bavan married.

15. To get Chris(my brother) to grow his hair.

16. To work my way up in the Kingdom.

17. To improve on my literary skills.

18. See if I still like Zombie Girl and whether God has

answered me. Conclusion:I dont like her anymore.

19. Start my own House Church.

20. Get min100 crowns from the Lord.

21. Buy a gift for Mom and Dad on their Anniversary.

22. Try and Drift in my Car. Done.

23. Give a huge offering to the Lord.

24. Buy something for all my friends.

25. Visit Assam and Delhi and also Sikkim.

26.Make another list for the 22nd of my 22nd.

(will add some later)

Happy Merry Christmas!!!

I know this is a bit cliched, but 2008 went by really fast. I’ve never felt like this before. I cant believe the year is coming to an end. So anyway, im probably going to write down all the things God has done for me this year.Should be up before the 31st. And unlike all other New Years , I would be spending this one with someone special. Which means , my friends would not be seeing me at midnight after church. 

It’s hard to break routine. I want this. Im sure. 2009 is going to be spectacular-fantastic-filled with Joy! 

Wow Let me at 2009! 

Thank you God.

God is Great: Greater still.

ANNOUNCEMENTS!!! HEAR YE HEAR YE!!!

It’s 1st Decemeber and if you have known me long enough you will definetly know that this post is not about World Aids day. Its about Christmas. Last year I went into “Chrismas Cheer mode” and I dont see why I shouldn’t this year too. So all those who are going to be around me or even remotely talk I warn you, NO BROODING, NO CRYING, NO BITCHING, NO I HATE CHRISTMAS TALKS and ESPECIALLY NO BUNKING CHRISTMAS PARTIES! 

Come on people CHEER UP! ITS CHRISTMAS TIME!!! WOHOOO!!!! Smile All THE WAY!

Also. There will be surprise tests. So dont you dare fail CHRISTMAS! Remember Santa is watching!

Where to now?

Im stuck. I cant seem to go ahead. I need to give up some things in life. I keep finding ways to bring back things back into my life. Burden my back. I dont need these burdnes. I . God! I need help! And plus I’ve got to pray about alanis morissette. Havent been doing that lately. But its going better than other ones have.

My God, When I in awesome wonder…

My list of priorities have been so messed up for one week that I don’t even know where to begin.Hmm, ack! I’ll give it a try.
Im over Zombie Girl (again!)for the 4th time.And I’m really starting to hate reruns of my life.So i’ve decided to wait my crushes or feelings out for a month  in prayer before I publicly announce it. Thats because by the 2nd week I can hear God telling me “this isn’t the Girl”.Honest.
I’ve also realized some pretty startling revelation that the Holy Spirit kept on telling me for the last 2 years and I refused to believe it.
I know that I haven’t been on good terms with the Holy Spirit either. There were days when I prayed, days when I didn’t read the Bible. Days when I just went without both. And I’ve come to a place where I CANNOT survive without Praying. And I don’t mean a 15 minute prayer. I mean a full fledged time where its just me and the Holy Spirit. I really need to discipline myself.I’ve got to cut my costs. Eben taught me how. I’ll show you. First I have Costs. Now I have Costs. There you go I cut costs!!

Oh! I got a catalogue from Academy of Arts University in San Francisco. I like this Uni. They call themselves ‘AAU- For Artists by Artists.’ I was really shocked to see their catalogue and letter in my mail today(send it by UPS!) and my Mom still thinks some friend mailed it to me. I’m happy I finally found a programme in Advertising that appeals to me.I have to start thinking and decide my course of action after TYBA exams. I don’t want to sit at home doing nothing at all. An idle mind…..
Another option is to work for JAM. Depends. Or I could work for Church. Or I might join and Ad company. I know I’ll have to do something useful in my further career than just work for money. And that is why I really do NOT see myself in a call center either. But lets wait and watch.Observe really, I doubt my stance would change.

I’m also wondering about my calling. I mean I’ve always known in my heart that I have to preach. But is it full time or part time? I don’t know. Like a Man of God told me that I have got to ask myself a very important question- “Do I have a full time ministry calling?” and I’ve done that. Just waiting, for an answer. Vineeta(My English prof) is of the strict belief that I will never work in Advertisements but go into fulltime instead. Anand supports this view by calling me Pastor. And my subconscious even introduced myself as Pastor Oscar to a stranger some months back. But jokes aside this really is a BIG question. The decision I take will affect my wife,mum&dad and oh well my entire family! What to do? What to do?

Oh and I’ve started to sing my own lyrics to God again!!Ashwini has left for Texas to do her Ph.D. I miss her already!!!

God’s Call

Yesterday we had a mighty time in prayer. The angles of God were kept busy all night.  Also while waiting upon the Father I suddenly realised that I wasn’t right with him. God wasn’t attracted to my praises. I felt empty and asked what the matter was. This has been going on for a long time. And God spoke that if one has to come into God’s presence one has to be Holy. For He is a Holy God. If I want God to show up when I stand or talk I need to be Holy. For He is the Holy one enthroned on Israel – Psalms 22v 3 Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One; you are the praise of Israel.

Shannon helped us see these points.

  • Consider this Hebrews 12:v14-Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord.
  • Psalms 22v 3 Yet you are enthroned as the Holy One; you are the praise of Israel.
  • Mathew 5:v8 God blesses those people whose hearts are pure. They will see him!
    Contemporary English Version
    (CEV)

    Copyright © 1995 by American Bible Society

  • Psalm 24( A Psalm of David)

    Only those whose hands and hearts are pure,
    who do not worship idols
    and never tell lies.
    5 They will receive the Lord’s blessing
    and have a right relationship with God their savior.
    6 Such people may seek you
    and worship in your presence, O God of Jacob.

    New Living Translation (NLT)Holy Bible. New Living Translation copyright © 1996, 2004 by Tyndale Charitable Trust. Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers.

So I’m going to be Holy and Pure for God. So that I can serve the master at all times. And at this reminded me of something The Lord had commanded me to observe and to do a long time ago. To be true, I have neglected that command. But I have repented and given my word to God that I shall start again.

Pride and C.S Lewis

I’ve realized that Im too proud. I need to be more Humble. God’s going to make me humble. Now I realized that is just wrong. I have to humble myself. If I ask God to humble me , its going to be way too painful. I’d rather humble myself. :Edited on april 8, 2008 at 1:45 p.m

A proud man is always looking down on things and people; and, of course, as long as you’re looking down, you can’t see something that’s above you.

C.S. Lewis

“Pride gets no pleasure out of having something, only out of having more of it than the next man.”

C.S. Lewis

“The easiest way to be humble is to give away all your money.”

– A Man Of God.