A Doubting God

Ever heard of that? A doubting God? Yeah, pretty much like a generous God, Righteous God and Loving God.
Have we? I guessed as much.

There are doubting Thomas’ and doubting Oscar’s. But make no mistake about it, there isn’t a doubting God.
Numbers 23:19 “God is not a man, that He should lie,
Nor a son of man, that He should repent;
Has He said, and will He not do it?
Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good”

As It is written, so It shall be done!

it’s so easy

to fall in love with the world. So easy to want things that the world tells you is nice and wonderful!
“Here, taste this. It’s good.” Sounds familiar? Try again now.
“Go for it.It’s a good movie; that place has awesome food; you should totally ask her out, she is perfect for you or you both look so cute; it’s a date oscar, not adultery; white lie ; what’s a signal ; your parents don’t matter, this is your decision anyway!; i need a little bit of ME time; so what if it isn’t Christian music? ; ah I can handle it.”
All coming out of the world’s nudge to take a peek, have a bite. It won’t hurt! Don’t flirt with the world. Yes, you can say Praise Ye the Lord and be dying to hold her hand. There is no such thing as harmless flirting. God saw that Adam was alone and HE(if the bold stressed word that signifies God’s sovereignty isn’t enough for you) decided that it was TIME for a helper to show up. And that is when Eve came into the picture. How do you know if you are working in His Will or not? Well if you say the word “I” too many times in your dictionary then replace it with “C”. I must bend to become “C”. (read Galatians 2:15-21)

Adam was doing what the Lord expected him to do. But you may say,’I am seeking first the Kingdom! Why am I not getting answers?”

Well my friend you forget that it says in Matthew 6:33 “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS and all these things shall be added unto you.”

Are you seeking His right will in every thing you do? This new year, get right with God in the Beginning so that it will go down well with you.

I’m going to have to make some difficult changes and decisions.
But keeping in mind His Will, it’s a small price to pay.

Preach it

Got thrown out of a coffee cafe tonite for opening the Bible and preaching the Word of God to my friend. Apparently according to one customer “believers can’t preach in CCD”. I don’t know who he is, or what he wanted. And lets not get into the “how dare he”. Lets pray.

We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. For we who live are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh.

Indeed, all who desire to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted,—2 Timothy 3:12

Yet if anyone suffers as a Christian, let him not be ashamed, but let him glorify God in that name.—1 Peter 4:12-14, 16

for as it is written in

Romans 8:35-39:

35Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

36Just as it is written,

37But in all these things we overwhelmingly )conquer through Him who loved us.

38For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers,

39nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Now, its too late to try

i pictured a man writing this just before he is thrown into eternal damnation.
i can see it in His eyes
wish i didn’t believe in those lies
i knew what it meant
to take that road down
trust me now.
Its filled with resentment.
I’ve seen the end of it all
the rich, the poor
even the big and small.
The famous and infamous
all who ever walked in Time
came down to a single stroke in eternity
Solomon was truly wise-
Everything else is Vanity.
Continue reading “Now, its too late to try”

You can make a difference

I ride to work everyday, even when I dont have work I am usually on the bike. I can safely say that Indian roads are to be experienced and learned.

Breaking a traffic signal is of no value today. It only costs 100 Rs to get away. Lesser if you want to bribe the official.Trust me, the only time you will NOT consider breaking it , is if you seen cops right in front of you or you have seen too many cops on that particular day to keep you alert.
Im not saying that I dont ever break signals. But I dont do it anymore. And if you catch me doing it, slap me.

I’ve noticed this. If everyone else is breaking the signal you will too even if you aren’t a regular at it.It is very easy to go with the flow. “Why are you doing it? I dont know. Because everyone else is.” For some it doesnt even matter if there are cops, they run away.

Its very difficult to stop at the signal when everyone else is breaking it. Even more to do so before the white line which is drawn before the zebra crossing.

But when you DO stop, you’ll witness a miracle. Don’t bother about the fool honking behind you to get you to break the signal. Wait for the signal to turn green. Suddenly you will see motorists stop too. Why? Cuz one of them saw you do it. And then everyone starts to stop for the signal.

My point is this- If a normal action of following normal logical laws can influence others to do the same, HOW MUCH MORE when you start living for Jesus Christ. How much more when you show Jesus in your life. Dont break God’s laws. Be an example to others.

So are you ready to make a difference today? Start with a smile.

What are your standards?

The past one week God has been reminding me how different a world we are living in. I bet everyone of you has heard or have been preached to the following  line “be in the world but not OF the world. ” As I go out of my house and interact with the World I’m amazed to see how the World has compromised on God’s standards! And why wouldnt you be? If I am not convinced or convicted that Pepsi is not good for me why would I stop drinking it? I wouldn’t right? So in the same way if people are not convicted about certain issues they wont change. So it would be great if phony religious people would stop telling them what to do and start getting right in their own lives first.

Anyway back to the World and God. In the Bible we see that God repeatedly puts his standard higher than the World. God knows better than our modern scientists who figured that AIDS and STD’s come in when you  have sexual intercourse with multiple partners. So God keeps  his standard. Why? Not that we can please Him only, but so it will be good for us. How many times have we read in the Bible “so that it will go well with you”? 

Today it is ok if you want to go on a trial and error spree with the opposite sex. Hey you’re young and this is the time to enjoy life right? A close friend asked how I am going to get all the practice at kissing if I am only going to do that after marriage. I have all the time AFTER marriage to practice on one mouth. I kinda like the idea of that. 
It is ok if you want to have premarital sex as long as you do it with protection. Here take your pick – condoms, contraceptives and what not methods! 
It is ok if you have a girlfriend/boyfriend but you still look lustfully at the gorgeous girl or that hunk when you pass the road. Why, I’m only looking arent I? Not like I slept with him/her or anything like that. Remember David? It took only one look from his window to get him to commit adultery and then murder. I’m not saying everyone will kill but the Bible says that even if we look at a woman/man and sin in my thoughts then I have already commited adultery.
It’s ok to drink socially. I’m not getting drunk at all. Besides its the etiquette to drink a sip at parties and get togethers.
It’s ok to lie to get others or myself out of trouble. If something good comes out of my lie why not?
It’s ok if that rickshawguy or the store clerk gave me 10 bucks extra. Not my fault. He should have checked anyway.

Tell you what the Bible says ITS NOT OK! 

Today’s Times of India front page shows a picture of Obamma looking at the “booty” (as they call it) of a young woman as the French Prez Sarkozy peeks on. Of course the media had a field day with it. I dont know about Obamma but I do care about my life. I care that I live according to God’s standards, not the World’s. 

What are your standards? The Bible or the Agony Aunt Column?
I’m not perfect. But I keep The Bible as my Standard.

Rom 1:16-17

Hey everyone. Just another update.

Work is going on good.I finished editing video for 31st May. The VCD’s should be out on this coming sunday.

My walk with God is getting strengthened. If not anything else, I’m getting bolder day by day. Sometimes I fall and guilt takes over, but according to the Word, Guilt is never from GOD.

God’s been helping me understand what unconditional love really means.I know I can never fully understand it. But I have a tinsy little idea. I cant do anything to to get God to Love me more. And I cant do anything that will make Him to love me less. 

But I need to get better in my walk with God. Need to pray and read so much more. The world is such a hopeless place without Jesus.I see beggars and the poorest of people everyday. Today a lady came by the office and she asked for some food. Usually one does see people begging, but this lady was different. She was an old woman,frail and helpeless. I dont know if you will understand what I’m saying here, but be with me here or atleast try to.

When I saw into her eyes I saw a broken life,fear and hopelessness. I saw pain and anger. But more than anything else she was hopeless for her situation. 

The world tells me that I’m supossed to help the poor in whatever way I can.Compassion for their situation is good. But what about their soul? Who cares about their eternal life? They call us ‘fanatics’ and ‘narrowminded’ when we give them the Gospel. The Bible tells me in Rom that the Gospel is the power of God unto salvation.


Romans 1:16


For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek.

So tell me what am I doing wrong when I tell them that they dont have to live a life without hope. That poverty,sickness,fear has been nailed to the Cross. That their life is meaningful because God died for them. That the living God who created the Earth and the Heavens cares for that old woman. That the people living on Earth dont have to enter a Godless eternity. 

I’d rather be a fool to everyone else by preaching the Gospel than be called wise in the World. I’m not Ashamed of the Gospel. I owe it to the people around me. What about you?

God, who makes things grow.

I was initially going to blog about my dinner with my classfriends that happened on Mondayevening. But something more in terms of importance has come up.After three years of being placed in Dahisar/Borivili , things are about to change.I believethe Lord has used Shannon as a medium to teach/love/correct and encourage us in his Kingdom.

I learned a few days back that Shannon will be moving out as our HC leader and Arun and Samwill be taking over Dahisar and Borivili. Im a bit sad because I will miss the company of who was my mentor for a very crucial part of the begining years. If it hadn’t been for Shan,I would have made a lot of mistakes and if it hand’t been for God I would have had done far greater ones.

I owe a lot to Shan and Farah, but I believe that even though I will miss him in everything I do from now onwards, we have this special bond that will not break just because of this administrative change. Shannon will continue to love and pray for me and I for him and Farah.

Now I look forward to learn and love Arun. Arun and Shannon are not the same persons, so what I learned from Shannon was good, but now I can learn from Arun and Sam, which I think will be good. Basically, we are all under one house, under one shepherd, one Lord all working to further the Kingdom of God. So it doesnt matter if I am under this one or that one.

As Paul writes in 1 Cor 3:1-15
4For when one says, “I follow Paul,” and another, “I follow Apollos,” are you not mere men?
5What, after all, is Apollos? And what is Paul? Only servants, through whom you came to believe-as the Lord has assigned to each his task. 6I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow. 7So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. 8The man who plants and the man who waters have one purpose, and each will be rewarded according to his own labor. 9For we are God’s fellow workers; you are God’s field, God’s building.

10By the grace God has given me, I laid a foundation as an expert builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should be careful how he builds. 11For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ. 12If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, 13his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man’s work. 14If what he has built survives, he will receive his reward. 15If it is burned up, he will suffer loss; he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames.

So be it. Let God be the center of attention in my life and not men of God.

God has a knack of messing up plans for His Greater Good.

To God Be the Glory,Honor and Power , Forever and Ever.

-9 Days


Me, Misha,Elvis(firang),Sid(dharth) and Supriya at St. Andrews for Firang and Sid ka Farewell.
Me, Misha,Elvis(firang),Sid and Supriya at St. Andrews for Firang and Sid's Farewell.

 St. Andrews house had their Farewell  Dinner ( read free food for invitees) today in college. I have not seen any activity undertaken by a student body come out nearly perfect. Hats off to all you Sandy’s.  I had a mock date with Misha. I’ve never gone out for a date. So my friend and I decided to be ‘with each other’ for the heck of it.

I think of all the people I could choose to think of to talk about this, Sid would be the friend I will miss the most. Sid invited me for the Hoste’s Annual function which was followed by dinner.


Me kicking Ebens butt at St.Andrews Dinner
Me kicking Ebens butt at St.Andrews Dinner


Graduating Students at St. Andrews
Graduating Students at St. Andrews

Past two weeks.

Things have been going slow for the past two weeks. Got into fights and stupid ones really. I really don’t know what really was happening. I was giving attention to other things. Things that didn’t need my attention. That didnt require any at all. I started to do things that I would normally not even think of. And slowly I started to go back on my old ways and soon Old Oscar was back seeking approval of his peers. I really don’t like it when the old man is back( not my father, my old being).

And I realized that all of this was happening cuz I have not prayed as much as I need to. It was confusing at first really. But I understood why it was getting difficult for me to survive without praying and reading God’s word.

Matthew 4:4 (The Message)

4Jesus answered by quoting Deuteronomy: “It takes more than bread to stay alive. It takes a steady stream of words from God’s mouth.”

Just like how man grows physically and needs to eat in larger quantity and quality, he needs to eat more of God. If one doesn’t eat his meals, he is going to get tired, exhausted and also sick. This way his body will not be able to perform. In the same way One cannot ignore the bread of life. For without this, he will die.

The Bread of Life

27“Don’t waste your energy striving for perishable food like that. Work for the food that sticks with you, food that nourishes your lasting life, food the Son of Man provides. He and what he does are guaranteed by God the Father to last.”
– Levite King