My God, When I in awesome wonder…
My list of priorities have been so messed up for one week that I don’t even know where to begin.Hmm, ack! I’ll give it a try.
Im over Zombie Girl (again!)for the 4th time.And I’m really starting to hate reruns of my life.So i’ve decided to wait my crushes or feelings out for a month in prayer before I publicly announce it. Thats because by the 2nd week I can hear God telling me “this isn’t the Girl”.Honest.
I’ve also realized some pretty startling revelation that the Holy Spirit kept on telling me for the last 2 years and I refused to believe it.
I know that I haven’t been on good terms with the Holy Spirit either. There were days when I prayed, days when I didn’t read the Bible. Days when I just went without both. And I’ve come to a place where I CANNOT survive without Praying. And I don’t mean a 15 minute prayer. I mean a full fledged time where its just me and the Holy Spirit. I really need to discipline myself.I’ve got to cut my costs. Eben taught me how. I’ll show you. First I have Costs. Now I have Costs. There you go I cut costs!!
Oh! I got a catalogue from Academy of Arts University in San Francisco. I like this Uni. They call themselves ‘AAU- For Artists by Artists.’ I was really shocked to see their catalogue and letter in my mail today(send it by UPS!) and my Mom still thinks some friend mailed it to me. I’m happy I finally found a programme in Advertising that appeals to me.I have to start thinking and decide my course of action after TYBA exams. I don’t want to sit at home doing nothing at all. An idle mind…..
Another option is to work for JAM. Depends. Or I could work for Church. Or I might join and Ad company. I know I’ll have to do something useful in my further career than just work for money. And that is why I really do NOT see myself in a call center either. But lets wait and watch.Observe really, I doubt my stance would change.
I’m also wondering about my calling. I mean I’ve always known in my heart that I have to preach. But is it full time or part time? I don’t know. Like a Man of God told me that I have got to ask myself a very important question- “Do I have a full time ministry calling?” and I’ve done that. Just waiting, for an answer. Vineeta(My English prof) is of the strict belief that I will never work in Advertisements but go into fulltime instead. Anand supports this view by calling me Pastor. And my subconscious even introduced myself as Pastor Oscar to a stranger some months back. But jokes aside this really is a BIG question. The decision I take will affect my wife,mum&dad and oh well my entire family! What to do? What to do?
Oh and I’ve started to sing my own lyrics to God again!!Ashwini has left for Texas to do her Ph.D. I miss her already!!!
welcome to the ‘confused abt what to do after TY club’. Glad you could join us.
On a more serious note, its good that instead of having NO CLUE, you can’t choose from the options that you have in front of you. That’s a start…I’m sure when the time is right, one of them will stand out from the others as the right choice. Until then just keep your eyes and ears open for what we call ‘the calling’.
Pardon the typo , “On a more serious note, its good that instead of having NO CLUE, you CAN choose from the options that you have in front of you”
Yeah I know what your talking abooout. Unlike others , I’m glad that I am not saying ” I don’t know what next” when asked.
But I think as I get nearer to April 22nd I’ll know. But for now time to wait.
whats on April 22nd?
“I’ve got to cut my costs. Eben taught me how. I’ll show you. First I have Costs. Now I have Costs.” What does that mean!? The last part esp.
I MISS everyone…….in new york now leaving for Texas tomorrow morning.
That was a typo@ christine. Now I have updated it.
We miss you too here!!
we miss you too! I’ll meet you at the border!:)
Sure!
Ooo that university in San Fransisco sounds fancy!