The joy of having a new phone is outlived especially if you got a new one after you lost an inexpensive phone. I lost my Moto Razr v3i a couple of months ago. To recompensate for the loss I bought myself the cheapest phone available in the market. So cheap that I dont even know it’s model no. But now I lost that too. This time it really really was NOT my fault. I fell of the bike and there was nothing I could do to NOT lose it.
I’m praying for an E71 or an E 63. JEHOVAH JIREH! I know God is well able to provide all things in His time. Just so you all know, even if He doesn’t give me either of the two choices, God is still well able to provide all things in His time.
Got thrown out of a coffee cafe tonite for opening the Bible and preaching the Word of God to my friend. Apparently according to one customer “believers can’t preach in CCD”. I don’t know who he is, or what he wanted. And lets not get into the “how dare he”. Lets pray.
We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. For we who live are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh.
Indeed, all who desire to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted,—2 Timothy 3:12
Yet if anyone suffers as a Christian, let him not be ashamed, but let him glorify God in that name.—1 Peter 4:12-14, 16
for as it is written in
Romans 8:35-39:
35Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, orpersecution, orfamine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
36Just as it is written,
FOR YOUR SAKE WE ARE BEING PUT TO DEATH ALL DAY LONG;
WE WERE CONSIDERED AS SHEEP TO BE SLAUGHTERED.”
37But in all these things we overwhelmingly )conquer through Him who loved us.
38For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers,
39nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Things to do before the 22nd of my 21st.
1. Find out how many people find “hugs for no reason” as inappropriate. Not many.
2. Learn to ride a scooty. This one is invalid.
3. Grow a full beard.
4. Wear a pink shirt, to show the people that I can change. Done. Dec 31st.
5. Get Christine to hold a cockroach.
6. Get eben to stand in front of Christine Holding a
cockroach.
7. To learn the Bass Guitar and start playing
in Church for the LORD. Jan 4th
8. To master the Acoustic and to sing along in the right
pitch. And start playing For the LORD.
9. To get my breakthrough. Done
10. To get my own laptop/ SLR Camera.
11. To write a script for an ad. Wrote two.
12. To come up with our Church’s Logo.
13. To get two laptop teams for Church.
14. To get Bavan married.
15. To get Chris(my brother) to grow his hair.
16. To work my way up in the Kingdom.
17. To improve on my literary skills.
18. See if I still like Zombie Girl and whether God has
answered me. Conclusion:I dont like her anymore.
19. Start my own House Church.
20. Get min100 crowns from the Lord.
21. Buy a gift for Mom and Dad on their Anniversary.
22. Try and Drift in my Car. Done.
23. Give a huge offering to the Lord.
24. Buy something for all my friends.
25. Visit Assam and Delhi and also Sikkim.
26. Make another list for the 22nd of my 22nd.
(will add some later)
i pictured a man writing this just before he is thrown into eternal damnation.
Nowi can see it in His eyeswish i didn’t believe in those liesi knew what it meantto take that road downtrust me now. Its filled with resentment.I’ve seen the end of it allthe rich, the poor even the big and small. The famous and infamousall who ever walked in Timecame down to a single stroke in eternitySolomon was truly wise-Everything else is Vanity.Read more »
When the going gets down,
only God can lift you up.
you think you can do it?
oh,you’d only get stuck
between Lucy baby
and the deep blue sea
-1st to 28th Sept 09
Three years ago, amongst the excitement of becoming a Son of God, I prayed many prayers. Some of them I dont even remember, but Praise God that the Bible tells me that even if I forget God doesnt. Today I was reminded of Genesis 28:15, God’s promise that He wont(sometimes I read that as ‘cant’) leave me until what has been promised is done.
I was going to Borivili Station through Dahisar station when I passed by a particular turning in the road. The reason why I remember that so vividly is because God led me there when I was searching for a starting stop for the Bus that would ferry passengers from Dahisar to Church. He told me that this fork in the road was designed for the very purpose I had come looking for.How cool is that? God ordained stio for that same bus I had prayed for, years ago. Of course I didnt see it until the time was fulfilled. However when the bus did start, they didnt have anyone to keep a track of the people or the bus. So I was asked to step in. At that time, I remember how unwillingly(with myself) I complied. But today I can hear God tell me “You prayed for this. Don’t you remember? So it’s only fair that it starts with your labour. You will enjoy the fruits of it.”
Isn’t our God wonderful? His ways are not Our ways. I cant believe it took me so long to understand what was going on that Elohim mind of HIS! If you have a prayer that hasn’t been answered. Dont worry. God hears our prayer as soon as we say it – 1 John 5:15“And if we know that He hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests which we have asked from Him.”
All Glory and Honour to Jesus, the Author and Finisher of our Faith.
Remember how God created the Universe and recreated the Earth and said that “it is good”? Well since we are made in his image, we have His creativity too.
The first revelation in the Bible we see of God is Jehovah Elohim- “I am God, the Creator.“
How cool is that? and unlike humans, he created everything out of nothing.For Humans, to even draw something on a clean slate, one needs some sort of inspiration. And even if you skip the inspiration, lets say you hypothetically did actually draw something that didn’t exist. You still got to make your own slate before you draw. Tabula Rasa my bum.
Reminds me of a joke-
Two scientists who were very succesful in cloning met up with God. Since they could create life too now, they decided to meet this God person with their findings.
” we can make human life too” said the two. The Big Dude says,”really? Thats new.But I dont believe it.”
“Tell you what, lets have a competition. You create a human and we’ll create a human. Let’s see who succeeds.”
“Okay. Lets do it. You go first.” said God
The scientists, excited started to take dirt to make man.
“Oh no you don’t, you got to make your own dirt first”
Have a Great Day everyone.
This post is dedicated to one of my dearest and closest friend “Siddharth Bhatt”
I ride to work everyday, even when I dont have work I am usually on the bike. I can safely say that Indian roads are to be experienced and learned.
Breaking a traffic signal is of no value today. It only costs 100 Rs to get away. Lesser if you want to bribe the official.Trust me, the only time you will NOT consider breaking it , is if you seen cops right in front of you or you have seen too many cops on that particular day to keep you alert.
Im not saying that I dont ever break signals. But I dont do it anymore. And if you catch me doing it, slap me.
I’ve noticed this. If everyone else is breaking the signal you will too even if you aren’t a regular at it.It is very easy to go with the flow. “Why are you doing it? I dont know. Because everyone else is.” For some it doesnt even matter if there are cops, they run away.
Its very difficult to stop at the signal when everyone else is breaking it. Even more to do so before the white line which is drawn before the zebra crossing.
But when you DO stop, you’ll witness a miracle. Don’t bother about the fool honking behind you to get you to break the signal. Wait for the signal to turn green. Suddenly you will see motorists stop too. Why? Cuz one of them saw you do it. And then everyone starts to stop for the signal.
My point is this- If a normal action of following normal logical laws can influence others to do the same, HOW MUCH MORE when you start living for Jesus Christ. How much more when you show Jesus in your life. Dont break God’s laws. Be an example to others.
So are you ready to make a difference today? Start with a smile.
I’ve been so overwhelmed by the Love of God for a couple of weeks now. It seems as it never gets over. Like it never stops, never tired and never runs dry. I rememberd this poem by Elizabeth Browning- How do I love thee, and it reminded me of God’s love.
Browning wrote……
How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and Ideal Grace.
This is mine…..
How did you love me? Can we ever count your ways?
You love me with an everlasting Love,
A love that can neither count nor stay
My soul cried Above
And God sent his only Begotten Son,
So that whosoever shall believe in him shall not Die
But have eternal life.
It’s not much, but it came to me so…
I didnt want it to seem as if I copied it so thats why I credited Browning in here.
The past one week God has been reminding me how different a world we are living in. I bet everyone of you has heard or have been preached to the following line “be in the world but not OF the world. ” As I go out of my house and interact with the World I’m amazed to see how the World has compromised on God’s standards! And why wouldnt you be? If I am not convinced or convicted that Pepsi is not good for me why would I stop drinking it? I wouldn’t right? So in the same way if people are not convicted about certain issues they wont change. So it would be great if phony religious people would stop telling them what to do and start getting right in their own lives first.
Anyway back to the World and God. In the Bible we see that God repeatedly puts his standard higher than the World. God knows better than our modern scientists who figured that AIDS and STD’s come in when you have sexual intercourse with multiple partners. So God keeps his standard. Why? Not that we can please Him only, but so it will be good for us. How many times have we read in the Bible “so that it will go well with you”?
Today it is ok if you want to go on a trial and error spree with the opposite sex. Hey you’re young and this is the time to enjoy life right? A close friend asked how I am going to get all the practice at kissing if I am only going to do that after marriage. I have all the time AFTER marriage to practice on one mouth. I kinda like the idea of that.
It is ok if you want to have premarital sex as long as you do it with protection. Here take your pick – condoms, contraceptives and what not methods!
It is ok if you have a girlfriend/boyfriend but you still look lustfully at the gorgeous girl or that hunk when you pass the road. Why, I’m only looking arent I? Not like I slept with him/her or anything like that. Remember David? It took only one look from his window to get him to commit adultery and then murder. I’m not saying everyone will kill but the Bible says that even if we look at a woman/man and sin in my thoughts then I have already commited adultery.
It’s ok to drink socially. I’m not getting drunk at all. Besides its the etiquette to drink a sip at parties and get togethers.
It’s ok to lie to get others or myself out of trouble. If something good comes out of my lie why not?
It’s ok if that rickshawguy or the store clerk gave me 10 bucks extra. Not my fault. He should have checked anyway.
Tell you what the Bible says ITS NOT OK!
Today’s Times of India front page shows a picture of Obamma looking at the “booty” (as they call it) of a young woman as the French Prez Sarkozy peeks on. Of course the media had a field day with it. I dont know about Obamma but I do care about my life. I care that I live according to God’s standards, not the World’s.
What are your standards? The Bible or the Agony Aunt Column?
I’m not perfect. But I keep The Bible as my Standard.
Work is going on good.I finished editing video for 31st May. The VCD’s should be out on this coming sunday.
My walk with God is getting strengthened. If not anything else, I’m getting bolder day by day. Sometimes I fall and guilt takes over, but according to the Word, Guilt is never from GOD.
God’s been helping me understand what unconditional love really means.I know I can never fully understand it. But I have a tinsy little idea. I cant do anything to to get God to Love me more. And I cant do anything that will make Him to love me less.
But I need to get better in my walk with God. Need to pray and read so much more. The world is such a hopeless place without Jesus.I see beggars and the poorest of people everyday. Today a lady came by the office and she asked for some food. Usually one does see people begging, but this lady was different. She was an old woman,frail and helpeless. I dont know if you will understand what I’m saying here, but be with me here or atleast try to.
When I saw into her eyes I saw a broken life,fear and hopelessness. I saw pain and anger. But more than anything else she was hopeless for her situation.
The world tells me that I’m supossed to help the poor in whatever way I can.Compassion for their situation is good. But what about their soul? Who cares about their eternal life? They call us ‘fanatics’ and ‘narrowminded’ when we give them the Gospel. The Bible tells me in Rom that the Gospel is the power of God unto salvation.
For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek.
So tell me what am I doing wrong when I tell them that they dont have to live a life without hope. That poverty,sickness,fear has been nailed to the Cross. That their life is meaningful because God died for them. That the living God who created the Earth and the Heavens cares for that old woman. That the people living on Earth dont have to enter a Godless eternity.
I’d rather be a fool to everyone else by preaching the Gospel than be called wise in the World. I’m not Ashamed of the Gospel. I owe it to the people around me. What about you?
1. That you are fulfilling the Great Commission….. or that you are 2. the body of Christ on Earth or even the fact that 3. others get to hear about Jesus’s great love.
Of course all of these are very important and valid……
but the best part of giving the Gospel is that satisfying feeling in your Spirit, knowing that the last 3 hours you just spent talking the truth makes all the difference in the life of that person in eternity.
So, who did you give the Gospel to today? You’d rather hear it from a blog than from God.
The historic match between Barcelona and Man U was really a historical event. Well, apart from the fact that Barca kicked Man U’s ass and Ronaldo did cry on screen (again) it was for the first time my mother allowed all my friends to stay overnight at my place.
All it took were some Smokin Joe’s Pizza and lots and lots of Pepsi. I’m still shocked that my mother readily agreed to it. No really. She usually doesnt.
Gina,Paras, Sherin, Eben, Vio, Jonathan, Chris and of cawrse me were there.
And talking about creating History, I didnt sleep at all while the match was on.
I’ve decided to go slow on drinking Pepsi. So I have decided to lay off it for not one day, not two days, not three , not a week nor three but one entire month.
So here is your chance to poll on how long you think I will last. You have a week before I get back from Jaipur.Happy polling.
Edit: 24th Nov, 2008 12.00 IST
So its been a month now, and I have finished what I was off to do.
I went without Pepsi for a month. Now some of you have challenged my decision to stay off Pepsi saying that I drank other aerated drinks and as I have always maintained I decided what I had to stay off. It was not a bet that was undertaken. What it was none will ever know. Some have an idea of it. But why and what I did it for will be a mystery. I cant share that.
So I would like to thank my supporters and critics. Three supporters to be exact. However in accordance with the poll, no one voted ‘ one month’. A lot of my friends voted under a month while some voted over a month and two days. Thank you for your opinions, I shall try and incorporate more polls on G.O.D. Ta Ta and Good Day , Good Morning and Good Night to all you kind souls.
In the year 2004 I passed my 10th and as I entered FYJC, like all protective mothers, mine decided that the time had come for me to have a mobile phone. Read more »
There is this application that I like called Compare Friends, I pit them against one another and I get to choose who gets what. Only problem is I get rated too. Yeah I know. Check out what FB users think of rating me. And notice the weaknesses, I dont think they are weaknesses at all. Do you?
Your friends have voted on your strengths and weaknesses:
My Dad left for Brazil tonight. It was a pleasant month with him. We went to Jaipur and we had our mandatory fight. But this time he got right back around. Surprising, but that is only cuz of God’s mircale with the ticket situation. So now I miss him. The first time in 20 years I miss my dad, I wish he stuck around for a lil while longer. I kinda got used to doing normal dad-son stuff. Like talk about stuff and issues. Even if it means that he starts talking on how ‘I should keep my mouth shut and mind my own buisness’ at times.
I guess you get so used to things in somepeople no matter its negative even that you start to miss exactly that in them. I think it’s the perfect irony in our imperfection.
I prayed for him. He is always worrying about his job and stuff. I don’t see why. With 15 years of experience as a Chef and now as a Sous Chef he should get a job back home easliy. However he doesnt agree with me. But on the bright side he didnt tell me to mind my own buisness. Yet. He kissed me goodbye. I owe a lot to my old man.
The Lord has endless ways of cheering you up and encouraging you. God speaks to me. He really does. I can hear His voice. Its like nothing you have ever heard before. When He starts nothing else matter. So this is a little for my Saviour.
I see the stars in the dim lit sky
Why am I alone?
You can see the stars a lot better
lying on the ground.
Soon the guilt catches me
the darkness surrounds
and engulfs my soul
I cry out to the one who
brought me with the price of His Own/.
It’s hard to see in the night,
especially if I am not standing upright.
Then I hear the most beautiful voice
My Lion, King of Judah roars.
He walks to my wearied soul
Kisses me and raises my head
as I fall in the fullness of His Love
in as much not left alone
he spoke in the voice you will ever know,
“Your Majesty
is called for a much far greater place than the floor.
As the year 2008 almost draws to a close, we see the ugly hand of terror work in India again. And this time its my city Mumbai. What was earlier started off just as indiscriminate firing to be a terrorist attack is now to be thought to be escalated to an international hostage situation at Oberoi and Taj. The army and National Security Commandos ( India’s SWAT team) are invovled in operations. Six Army columns are deployed in South Mumbai.
Earlier on Nov 26th,
(pic courtesy: AP)
The first incident started at the Taj Hotel(5 STAR), where unidentified persons started to fire at police forces. Subsequently shots were heard at CST and the terrorists/gunmen are supposed to be inside the premises. The hotel has asked all their guests not to come back to the hotel. The police have cordoned off the area and roads seem to be empty. Congress MP, Milind Deora and the CM spoke to a news channel pleading the people of Mumbai to remain calm, composed and not to indulge nor believe any rumors and to wait upon the Govt to issue official news. Later on we see they have taken lives of 60 civilians with different strategies. They hijacked a Police Van , stole cars and used them to fire randomly at crowds and unsuspecting people with grenades and automatic weapons.
As of now. There have been attacks of gunfire at
Taj Hotel , near gateway of India.
Oberoi Hotel.
CST Station ( earlier and still popularly known as VT)
Cafe Leopold at Colaba causeway.
Metro . A van came up and started fire. People injured.
Cama Hospital.
Ramada Hotel.
There have been gunfire and blasts at.
Trident Hotel (earlier known as Hilton)
Oberoi. Now under seige.
Petrol Pump at Colaba blown up by grenade/ low intensity.
Be it today, tomorrow or later on. I urge you to do this with all you heart. Pray. Pray for this city.
ATS Chief injured.
Police suffering casualties.
American national and western citizens were rounded up together at the Taj and Oberoi after enquiring of nationals at the reception.
Updates: Nov 27th. 9.35 a.m onwards.
Terrorists were holed up in Cama hospital, Churchgate have been flushed out by the police but are absconding. Cama hospital is a womens and childrens hospital. No casualties reported.
Terroists have fled with 2 Govt cars. Some mumbaikars have recieved sms informing them of the vehicles and their registeration numbers with a call to keep their eyes open and co-operate with the Police.
Situation at TAJ/Oberoi: We see NSG commandos strategically entering the Hotel and sound of gunshots follow in response. A lot of Tourists have been evacuated from the Hotels. The command of operations have been smart and quick to provide FireEngines, Buses and Hospital Vans as cover to fleeing tourists and as these vehicles provide cover against bullets we also see Army/National Security Commandos rushing into the Hotel.
Terroists are still in the building called Nariman House. Locals say that, they have been living right next to terroists. people who were lying low, keeping minimal contact with the public. However, what seems to be of chief concern is the people they are targetting in the building. The housing is full of Jewish homes and families. They already have shot dead a couple in the building. No confirmations of further casualties from the housing society.Police and armymen have been patrolling at a safe distance awaiting orders.
The Prime Minister has called for an emergency cabinet session with National Secrity Advisors and the State Govt is already behind closed doors discussing strategy and further action as there have been no attempts to contact any Govt/police officials by the Terrorists.
Schools,Colleges,The Stock market are shut. Trains and Buses are running but reportedly empty.Office goers have not ventured outside. The police are not ruling out the possibility of another attack in the city during the day.So far, we have seen Mumbaikars co-operating with the Cops and staying indoors.Lets pray that this doesnt escalate any further.
The National Security Guards have stormed TAJ and are still in the process of following their plans to go room to room and secure the premises. However currently the hostage situation in the Taj has ended. They have evacuated over 400 people fromt he Taj. Amidst this victory we hear another devastating news. The Taj GM and his wife along with 3 children have been killed.
7 Foreign Nationals have been killed.
Operations are underway in Oberoi and Nariman House. It is 7.37p.m and as darkness falls, the situation has improved. But there is no surety on bringing life back to normal in the City.
Photojournalists have been at the sites of destruction and firings at the cost of their own lives for one whole day now. ( I wonder if my family will understand when I am doing the same)
Updates for 28th of Nov.
One terrorist caught. LeT link established.
Seige on the Taj was called off saying that the situation is under control. However as of today morning confirmed news state that there are still 10-15 hostages with 2-3 Militants in the TAJ bldng.
TAJ GM is alive. However his wife and 2 children were burnt to death in the suite that was allotted to them. The room that is under fire(see pic below).
CST: Killed – 47. Rescued -56
Cama hospital . Killed -4.
Oberoi operation is still on.
Right now all focus and force is on Nariman House where Jewish RabbiGavriel Holtzberg and his wife Rivika have been held hostage . The terrorists have released their 2 year old son. The Rabbi belongs to the ultra orthodox ChapadLubavithc movement of the Hasidic Jews. Obvoisly this is another prized bonus for the ultras.
Gujurat CM said in a speech that this attack violates a treaty between Pakistan and India, wherein the former stated that no sea attacks would be undertaken. The PMO has not responded to this comment and if it does, I in all ingnorance am forced to think of the dire consequences. We dont need any more lives taken than the current count.
I am sitting at my window looking into the images speakingout of my computer screen and I cannot comprehend the grevious reality of the situaion. In one night, over the last 4 hours, over 60 people have been killed, hundreds injured, a petrol pump blown up and police enforcers dying under the barrage of bullets. This is not just an organized attack. It is an operation gone horrible. Whatever they planned , I speculate, must have been smaller than this. What has happened is definetly bigger and much worse than what they wanted to achieve.
You see none of us, including the cops were ready for this. But you may say, “Oscar thats obvious! One will never be ready for things like these”. Allow me to explain what I percieve. Mumbai has had its share of Terror attacks. Until the 26th of Nov 11.00 Mumbai was only aware of RDX and explosions on trains, buses,mosques and temples.
Under the moonlight of Nov the 26th everything changed. They way our and probably the World’s eyes and ears percieved terror has changed. Its not easy to imagine how they got into the TAJ,Oberoi and CST. All three places that are in the heart of the city that are guarded with police patroling 24/7. You have tourism,public services,defenders of justice (Police) under attack. You have three top police officers. ATS Chief Hemant Karkare, encounter specialist Vijay salushkar and addtl CP Ashish Kamte succumbing to the terrorists fire. You see its not the hotel,nor the cinema hall, nor just the Police that has gotten attacked. Its us. Its the city. However i’m not talking about the Spirit of Mumbai. I dont beileve in such a fallacy.
So among all the questions everyone is asking “Who are these people? What kind of times are we living in? Why is this happening? How can this happen to Mumbai?
I have one question that I think no one has asked so far, “ Are we in all practicality, AT WAR?”
Looking at the Army Commandos come into the scene, i can hear the answer now.
It’s 1st Decemeber and if you have known me long enough you will definetly know that this post is not about World Aids day. Its about Christmas. Last year I went into “Chrismas Cheer mode” and I dont see why I shouldn’t this year too. So all those who are going to be around me or even remotely talk I warn you, NO BROODING, NO CRYING, NO BITCHING, NO I HATE CHRISTMAS TALKS and ESPECIALLY NO BUNKING CHRISTMAS PARTIES!
Come on people CHEER UP! ITS CHRISTMAS TIME!!! WOHOOO!!!! Smile All THE WAY!
Also. There will be surprise tests. So dont you dare fail CHRISTMAS! Remember Santa is watching!
Today was Justin’s Bday . I showed up at Christine’s place and Bitu welcomed me calling me “bhaskaran”. We sang for him as he cut the Merwans cake! Maavi made Biriyani, cake and for dessert we had ice cream !
The video is hilarious! Check it out! We missed Christine, and aunty kept saying, ” If Christine wuz here she would have done something”. She asked where everyone else is.
Anyway, enjoy the video.
Justin had a good time. I went with him to Church office and we condemned Lenoxx as a liar because Lennox forgot to give the housechurch offerings to Justin on Sunday. Justin called and said,
” Now, look what you have done. You know that Pastor will scream at your leader? Sam will be very sad and disappointed.
In fact he is very disappointed to find that you have done such a thing!”
Lennox is quiet.
” We love you Lennox but you should not steal.”
” But i didnt steal.”
“Where is the offering? Did you give it?”
” No.It’s with me. I…”
“That makes you a theif. Dont do this thieveing buisness”
” I really forgot…I didnt mean to steal, Justin”
Call ends. Network problem I think.
We call him back.
” It got cut”
” no, your making that up. Its guilty conscience! I can tell”
” no Justin, I couldnt come to Church as I wasnt feeling well”
” great, first you dont give the housechurch offerings , stealing that is. Secondly you miss church because your conscience wont allow you! Am I not right? Tell me!”
Lennox is really scared now. He doesnt say anything for a while.
” Look Lennox, dont do this. There is no condemnation in Christ, but I condemn you !!”
We couldnt take it anymore. by we I mean ” Rosy baby(Justin R),Jabakumar, Justin and myself.
We were on the floor laughing hard and I told Lennox its a joke. He sighed and he said he was really really scared. Anyway, it was fun! Lennox understood in the end. He found it funny too.
I know this is a bit cliched, but 2008 went by really fast. I’ve never felt like this before. I cant believe the year is coming to an end. So anyway, im probably going to write down all the things God has done for me this year.Should be up before the 31st. And unlike all other New Years , I would be spending this one with someone special. Which means , my friends would not be seeing me at midnight after church.
It’s hard to break routine. I want this. Im sure. 2009 is going to be spectacular-fantastic-filled with Joy!
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I go from nothing to
Eternity
Its that Time of the year again, where I look back and thank God for everything.
Christmas is special to me because not only is it the month when everyone is happy, even if it means just for Christmas but I get to tell everyone about Jesus’ Love. Unconditional Love.
Christmas this year was GREAT! I did everything I had planned earlier. I wish I had prayed more. On Christmas eve, it got a bit lonely watching some of my friends go out for parties and/or hang around with their better half. I missed having that for some time. Ok, so i’ll admit half an hour. I really did. But I thought about it then I realized It didn’t matter really. As long as ’she’ is having a great time too. Dont ask me who ‘She’ is I dont know.
New Years is going to be fantastic. Im gonna spend time with the most special person in my life!
I love you Lord, I worship you
Hope which was lost, now stands renewed
I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the savior king
Had a Fun,Glory filled New Years Midnight Service. We Worshiped our way into the New Year. I wouldn’t have had it any other way. I wish I could have stayed up and prayed. But I got up and spent some time with My Bestest Friend- Jesus.
Isn’t He Beautiful?
Isn’t He Wonderful?
Yes you are Beautiful,
Yes You are Wonderful
Prince of Peace,Son of God
Yes You are . Yes You Are.
Some of my friends met up. I couldnt. Got home very very late. I’m really glad that God has given me such wonderful friends to spend my life with. And he keeps bringing in new people to whom I can be a blessing and vice versa.
Yes. My God is a faithful God.
College starts tmrw. Back to mundane timeline again.
I looked at your face today
I realized When you smile
I feel like cuddling you, inside.
I stared at you yesterday
and when you didnt seem to notice
I rejoiced.
Or else you would think I was staring at your face.
I started to wonder why
I feel this
sometimes, I think I do.
I’ve toyed with the idea of telling you
but common sense forbids me so.Hence…
You dont complain a lot.
However, I’ll have you know
they are all for silly reasons
and I know this because I keep listening to you all the time.
We’re good friends
you and I
this something of a feeling
will just pass away and
these words will be just another draft
in my published folder.
If not for anything,
I think. And I just think,
I might have a little thing,
For You.
(I’ve been wanting to write “something like this only” ever since I’ve read Ezekiels poems on Love.Please do not ask who the poem is adressed to. I wont answer that.)
The past two weeks has turned me into an insomniac. I couldn’t do with just 4 hours of sleep anymore and my subconscious decided to teach me lesson. You see, Mommy dearest tried waking me up as usual(which means pour lots of water on my face if I didnt wake up to my alarm) on Wednesday and allegedly( yes I’m using that word) I told her that I didn’t have a first lecture. Possible? I think so. As far as I know I remember a voice telling me, ” No. Sleep. You don’t have to go. You can sleep as much as you want today.” Mom refuses to believe me. My body clock got back to normalcy after Wednesday. I woke up today morning(Thursday), rode to Andheri Station. Took an empty train, watched the sun rise on my way to college and walked on the beach followed by a good breakfast. Today was aweful.
If I could, I would strangle that voice. I don’t have good attendance. Well I do. Just dont want to get in trouble thats all. Stupid subconsciousness.
However on Wednesday, MuMu’s Grandma passed away. Went for the funeral. Was not surprised to see the family (only Mumu’s viz ‘The Trinidade family’) not cry and do the normal things one would expect. They were calm, composed and infact happy . All of which would not have been possible had Aunty Trinidade not lived a life committed to Christ. Uncle Savio Trinidade preached the Gospel, twice…er or four times. Can’t remember. He’s on a war path.
Exams start in less than a month. Hmmm. please keep me in prayers.
Hello, Hello, Hello,
Hello, Hello, Hello,
[Verse 1]
I’ve got a little baby, but she’s out of sight,
I talk to her across the telephone.
I’ve never seen my honey but she’s mine all right,
So take my tip and leave this gal alone.
Every single morning you will hear me yell,
“Hey Central! Fix me up along the line.”
He connects me with ma honey, then I rings the bell,
And this is what I say to baby mine,
[Chorus:]
Hello! ma baby, Hello! Ma honey, Hello! ma ragtime gal.
Send me a kiss by wire, baby my heart’s on fire!
If you refuse me, Honey, you’ll lose me, then you’ll be left alone;
Oh baby, telephone and tell me I’m your own.
Hello! Hello! Hello! Hello there.
[Verse 2]
This morning through the phone she said her name was Bess,
And now I kind of know where I am at.
I’m satisfied because I’ve got my babe’s address
Here pasted in the lining of my hat.
I am mighty scared, ’cause if the wires get crossed,
‘Twill separate me from ma baby mine,
Then some other man will win her, and my game is lost,
And so each day I shout along the line,
I just heard that Reuban got the job offer from Indigo. She is leaving for Delhi on thursday for two months and then Hyderabad for 3 years. MuMu is leaving too! Although she got a Mumbai based Job with Indigo. I cant believe I will have to play bass guitar soo soon! Last sunday, Mumu on the bass, this sunday no mumu on the bass. get my drift?
In a lot of ways im excited cuz I get to play now. But, I cant believe God is doing this to me. I never, ever thought I would be on my own. You know in a weird uncanny way, I knew He’d do this to me. He’s always playing these jokes. I just don’t find it funny. He always gives me responsibility before I think I can take them on. I think its because He wants me to be dependent on Him and not anyone else. Have to be careful now, if I get closer to anyone(than I need to) that person might just be taken away. You know, hes pretty zealous when it comes to his children. He wants me to learn from Him,talk to Him more often. Doesnt like it when I give attention to others. I like that about Him.
Saw this entry in my diary. I started to maintain a Diary a couple of years ago, jotting down what I thought of our God. Thoughts translated into words, words flowed into verse. I now have three of them. Not all of them are filled with the above. Some have notes from lectures.:)
15th June, Friday 2007.
“It’s beenTwo years since I’ve known Queenie. One full year after the break up…….”
I go on to ask God why it had to be so. I had loads of questions but very few answers. One place it says ” If you please, one day let me smile down on what I’ve written with her” I don’t think that is ever possible. But, Hey! I’m smiling right?
So “MY GOD” is one of the first songs I wrote for God.
Check these two out. Will post more when I get the time.
I warned all my friends online in December that I was gonna turn nostalgic and emotional as College ended. Some people absolutely hate it. I on the other hand am fine with them thinking so. This is the way I deal with things. I cry when I need to. There is nothing ‘less masculine’ about it. Jesus cried when he was full of sorrow.
10th or the 11th of Feb is the offical date for our Graduating students Farewell.
Im going to write a post for everyday till the 10-11th of Feb. Cheerio~
Me, Misha,Elvis(firang),Sid and Supriya at St. Andrews for Firang and Sid's Farewell.
St. Andrews house had their Farewell Dinner ( read free food for invitees) today in college. I have not seen any activity undertaken by a student body come out nearly perfect. Hats off to all you Sandy’s. I had a mock date with Misha. I’ve never gone out for a date. So my friend and I decided to be ‘with each other’ for the heck of it.
I think of all the people I could choose to think of to talk about this, Sid would be the friend I will miss the most. Sid invited me for the Hoste’s Annual function which was followed by dinner.
Got back from Dinner with my class at my Head of Department, Michelle Philip’s house. She lives in Air India Housing Colony. There is a Jet Airways Plane parked ourside her lawn. Her house faces the runway. Yes, Eben would have loved to see the planes take off and taxi off the run way!
We played DumCharades and got into lots of controversies and fun! I think this is the third time(unfortunately) that my class has come together as ONE entity and participate in any event.
My favorite professor Vinitha Matthews could not join us. She had a ‘do’ ( thats dinner for Vinitha) at the Principal’s. Honestly I dont think why anyone would willingly put oneself into any situation with him conversing over food. We missed her.
-10(minus 10) to 0 Day signifies the last 10 days of college. With 0 onwards signifying another era in my life.
I dont want to get out of college so soon.But I dont think there is anything I can do. I wonder if I will come to college when I get bored, like Eben does. But then apart from Sherin there is no one to come back to. Everyone I know has either Graduated or is Graduating with me. I think thats a good thing.
Misha,Supriya,Elvis and I purposely keep lingering around the Department even after lectures are over. The profs get irritated now saying, “they dont want to leave now. Usually Oscar runs as soon as the lectures get over. they’ve begun to realize that they have one week left”.
I dont know if they are identifying with this, or making fun of our situation. if it is, then its a pretty mean thing to do.
Vinitha asked me, ” So tell me Oscar whar do you think about your teachers?”
I told her that I’d tell individually! and poor sould perked up her ears and said ,”Ok. Thats fine.” and waited for me to start.
I had to explain that I would talk to them seperately. She is cool with that.
I like her the best.
Its a good thing that not many people read my blog. I can write whatever I want without worrying so much.
With 7 days to go before College ends, I almost cried on the way back Home.
Today as soon as I got some time alone, I wrote down all the names from my class and prayed for them. I might not see all of them ever again. However with God all things are possible.
I lost count of the number of days for College to finish. This is because they are taking extra lectures until the 13th or the 14th.
I told a couple of my friends what I really really thought about them. And they told me that I am no one to Judge them. Well I guess they are right. I am no one to Judge them. Honestly I wasnt trying to Judge them. I know it is a judgement and I really dont have the authority to Judge and I hate Judging people. I agree I could have put it up ina better way. I just dont want them to die. I love them soo much.
I cant believe the lyrics for this song. Check it out.
Emosanal Attyachaar – Brass Band Version
Emosanal Attyachaar - Brass Band Version
Jia Jia Jia Jia Doleh…
1-2-3-4…6…
Yeh dil pighla ke saaz bana loon,
dhadkan ko awaz bana loon,
smoking smoking nikle re dhooan.
Seene mein jalti hai armanon ki arthi,
Arrey what to tell you darling kya hua.
Arrey sapne dekhe jannat ke,
par mitti mein mil jaen,
phooken re ghar baar ki duniya..
ko bole good bye..
Chad jae haye Allah,
jisko bhi yeh bukhaar,
Ho gai dil ke paar tragedy…tragedy,
lut gai re bahaar, gul sukh sukh murjhae,
Ho gai dil ke paar tragedy…tragedy,
lut gai re bahaar, gul sukh sukh murjhae,
Bol Bol why did you ditch me,
Zindagi bhi lele yaar kill me,
Bol Bol why did you ditch me whore.
Bol Bol why did you ditch me,
Zindagi bhi lele yaar kill me,
Jao pia jao pia jao pia….
Bharpa jo ek shor hai,
Pukhta hai purzorr hai,
Agg rag jalte iske sarmaye…
Kal mera bebaaak tha,
Aaj magar kamzor hai..
Khud se ankhein hi na mil payein.
Aankhon ke aage jo hai,
Manzar lava barsaaye…
Jalta hai dil jalta hai…
Til til main jalta hoon…
Is lamhe ki haqeeqat..
Gawaara na kar paaye…
Jalta hai dil…
Til til main jalta hoon…
Hat ja re hat jaa,
pare hat ja re nazron se,
pare Hat ja re hat jaa re,
pare hat jaa re..
arrey jaa re…
Mere lavss ke haar jaise,
hain yaadon mein chubte jaise..
Aasoon mere behte rehte..
Khoon ke…khoon ke…(twice)
Ankhon ka hai dhokha,
Aisa tera pyaar
Tera Emosanal Attyachaar!!!
Ankhon ka hai dhokha,
Aisa tera pyaar
Tera Emosanal Attyachaar!!!
Today the Third years had our farewell in college. We took the 7.15 train and a lot of the old train gang was there. It reminded me of how I started my Degree College. Travelling in the train with a group of friends. LIfe did come full circle as Paras pointed out. We were ushered into college in the College Hall. Today a lot of us remembered it so. In the very same hall I was welcomed, I now say a thank you, not yet a good bye. I’m not dead yet..
The farewell was scheduled to start with a customary Chapel service at 10.00. I thought it was 10.30 and was sitting with God outside the Boys Common Room. I asked Eben to join me later. I love Eben, I dont think I could have gone past today without him.I’ll admit this- I cried a lot during the first prayer and couldnt sing the hymn ” count your blessings”. I really couldnt count them. I started to think of each and every one of them. By the time I hit 3 I couldnt sing anymore. our God is faithful, whether you like it or not he DOESNT CHANGE.
We then followed a routine of reading prayers and Sam Sir gave some quick but a powerful short message. Our Chaplain who is incidentally a woman, Aprana Rangaya gave one of the most delicate but well put talk on Psalm 23. She made it simple for everyone who sat there in the chapel. Afterwards we proceeded to the College Hall where our teachers served us food. I liked this part, not because I want to boast saying that “THEY had to serve US!” But simply because it reminded me of what Jesus did for his disciples – “Wash their feet and tell them to do the same.” My College is an excellent example of ’servant hood”. Our Founder John Wilson gave up his dreams to fulfill a million other dreams . I dont know if they realize it. I sure do. They’ll be rewarded in heaven. A professor who did this without any mask was Prof.Sudhakar.
We have an amicable way of sitting facing each other and listening to any student who wants to talk about his life in college. Some were here for a couple of months,a lot who were just for 3 years, select few for 5 and One person who was there for 7. They were different people with different experiences. Some wrote it down others were bold enough to speak from their heart. it was largely in English although the students who wanted to speak in marathi and Hindi were welcome to do so and so they did.
The hall was packed with Graduating students.Very few sat till the last person said their little something. I’m glad God chose me to be a part of History of Wilson College.
I stepped into a pond a long time ago.As I did so,the water got all muddy, the dirt settled at the bottom had come loose and I could only see a very dirty place I was standing in. I prayed and Jesus came and took the muck away, it was painful. Today I stood in the pond and I can clearly see my feet. I can see what I stand on.Christ the bedrock.
I entered college alone
5 years on,
I leave with Christ
to fulfill His plan for my life.
I realized who my real friends are today. It’s simple really. The ones who stick with you till the end.
After 2 long years of hiatus GTC is back together with GTC Awards.
Presenting to you GTC Awards- A lifetime achievement for absolutely nothingness except being you! Yesserie! We only nominate 100% original individuals only. What’s that The Oscar? Grammy’s? Ignoble? Pfft! Yeah right! We’re way ahead of these phonies!!!
Read all about it on our new website and cast your vote today!
Rules: Follow the rules that you see on the polling post! You can only vote once (apparently they are monitoring ip’s and all that jazz) and remember to say WELCOME loud enough for us to hear at the end of every poll. After you vote it says “Thank you for voting”.
I want everyone who reads this to know the truth. You may ask – What is truth? Pontius Pilate asked the same question two thousand years ago. The same question rings today in the mind of men who walk the earth.Standford university says it aptly- Truth is one of the central subjects in philosophy. It is also one of the largest. Truth has been a topic of discussion in its own right for thousands of years.
My friends listen to me. This is Truth that happened on the 22nd of march. I’ve heard it happen, I believed without a shred of doubt when I heard it so, I’ve seen the after effects after it happened so, but I had never seen it with my very own eyes.
Acts 9:v 34″Aeneas,” Peter said to him, “Jesus Christ heals you. Get up and take care of your mat.” Immediately Aeneas got up. v35 All those who lived in Lydda and Sharon saw him and turned to the Lord.
Today in Church during service I saw a man walk in with crutches. He is an ordinary man, only he couldn’t walk on his own. While we worshiped God he came in the front and started to walk, run and Praise the God of the Heaven and Earth. He was healed instantly just as Aeneas was. I’ve seen the blind see, I have seen the deaf hear, I have seen people with spectacles completely healed of their defective vision- my brother is a living testimony of this. That man went home not on his crutches but on his legs- the way God made man to walk!
Isaiah 53:
v 5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed.
As I saw God doing the same acts he did as Man on this earth my heart lept with un-told Joy and Praise! I could not contain it. I had to tell this to everyone. Jesus can heal you.And If you go and read the rest of Acts chapter 9:32-40, you will read of A woman named Tabitha or Dorcas being raised from the Dead by Peter. Jesus can even raise the Dead. All power and authority has been given to Christ Jesus, who died for mine and your Sin. Trust in Him today. He knows you.
This is the Truth – John 14:6
v6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
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Now that GTC awards are over, the Five of The Five from GTC encourage you to go vote for the upcoming elections. Remember one can always bitch and moan about how stupid the system is, but it takes a real man and a brave woman to go vote. Here is an ad created by a friend to encourage you!
the sun climbed the day
toward the west
as the world took rest
a lady lay
on the cold bed of pain and sweat.
Bloodied hands took that was naught
to destroy that was to be brought.
As she fell asleep
in one corner,
the unbehest Figure starts to weep
over the murder
of HIS own dear.
A decade and 7 years on,
i hear the wrong
her sorrow, ringing with mine.
How i wish, i’d know you unborn
foetus,
today i mourned,
the death of my forlorn sis.
I came online a few hours ago because I wanted to blog some stuff. For the-life-of-Alexander-the-Great-who-died-before-he-could-conquer-the world- also-Napoleon -the-Frechman, I cant remember what it is.
Its like they vomitted on the song and then poured coke over , to have that sugar coated effect of being nice. I dont mean the drug. And not to mention ‘Jai Ho’ is’ Jai O ‘ for the ‘american girls in Indian attire’. Ugh! I am so repulsed by everything that I see in this music video.
Starting with the remix to the choreography and the background dancers, wait didnt I say everything? Yes.
Why? Why? Why did they have to ruin this perefectly mediocre song that went on its way to win a couple of me’s? Why?Look at it! No really Look at it!
I was initially going to blog about my dinner with my classfriends that happened on Mondayevening. But something more in terms of importance has come up.After three years of being placed in Dahisar/Borivili , things are about to change.I believethe Lord has used Shannon as a medium to teach/love/correct and encourage us in his Kingdom.
I learned a few days back that Shannon will be moving out as our HC leader and Arun and Samwill be taking over Dahisar and Borivili. Im a bit sad because I will miss the company of who was my mentor for a very crucial part of the begining years. If it hadn’t been for Shan,I would have made a lot of mistakes and if it hand’t been for God I would have had done far greater ones.
I owe a lot to Shan and Farah, but I believe that even though I will miss him in everything I do from now onwards, we have this special bond that will not break just because of this administrative change. Shannon will continue to love and pray for me and I for him and Farah.
Now I look forward to learn and love Arun. Arun and Shannon are not the same persons, so what I learned from Shannon was good, but now I can learn from Arun and Sam, which I think will be good. Basically, we are all under one house, under one shepherd, one Lord all working to further the Kingdom of God. So it doesnt matter if I am under this one or that one.
As Paul writes in 1 Cor 3:1-15
4For when one says, “I follow Paul,” and another, “I follow Apollos,” are you not mere men?
5What, after all, is Apollos? And what is Paul? Only servants, through whom you came to believe-as the Lord has assigned to each his task. 6I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God made it grow. 7So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. 8The man who plants and the man who waters have one purpose, and each will be rewarded according to his own labor. 9For we are God’s fellow workers; you are God’s field, God’s building.
10By the grace God has given me, I laid a foundation as an expert builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should be careful how he builds. 11For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ. 12If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, 13his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man’s work. 14If what he has built survives, he will receive his reward. 15If it is burned up, he will suffer loss; he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames.
So be it. Let God be the center of attention in my life and not men of God.
God has a knack of messing up plans for His Greater Good.
To God Be the Glory,Honor and Power , Forever and Ever.
Amen.
Feeling Lonely is a terrible feeling that can have varying results. Being a loner and feeling Lonely are two diverse realities. If you are a loner, you cant be involved in being described as an ‘talker’ or a ‘hug whore’. However you can be feeling lonely, and not be a loner!
I could think of doing tons of things as to ‘kill’ my boredom. Take for instance where I am right now. I’m inside a Mall. But this is definitely not helping. Watching others walk around in pairs or groups avails much. Crossword-the bookstore didn’t help either. They didn’t have a good collection of books or Graphic Novels.
So why am I here? Not the place in my life but on this Lone Wodden Box? What are ‘ Lone Wooden Boxes’? Well they are seats/benches you see in Mall’s where people sit when they are lonely. This Mall has Wooden ones, hence the name.You probably think I got lonely and went to the Mall. NO. I’m here because I had time to kill. The reason of my loneliness is prayerlessness. So how do I get out of this situation? I definitely don’t want to pray since the lack of it got me here in the first place, I really dont want to do that right now.Or I could go ahead and start a conversation with one of these lovely women next to me. I could also flirt. I haven’t flirted in a long time. But the Ring on my finger forbids that irrelevant thought. And Hypocrisy is not my cup of tea. I could also run opposite on the escalators. But I’ll be tireder. So no can do. With less than 50Rs in my wallet I’m running out of ideas.
I checked out the washroom too, if you ever want to know how well a place is run, check the loo. My Observation at Oberoi Mall: Pretty good. So much aesthetically better than other malls. Also when you go to the loo do you notice how people always stare at you? Why do they want to do that? I’m not doing anything that mankind hasn’t done already!
Suddenly, I’m not lonely anymore. Why? I simply prayed to my Father in Heaven. After all He is faithful and just to forgive my sins as I confess it to Him.
2. Wrote all my exams. Some were good. some were ok and probably one was bad.
3. I now have a chastity ring, for all who dont know what one is, It is a ring that you wear that symbolizes your intention of staying singleminded on the one partner that God has prepared for you. No, it is NOT cool to put it on your finger and see if it fits you.
4. Getting better on the Bass. Need to practice more.
5. Was back @ Zombie girl and now I’m out of it too.
6. Trusted God for a financial breakthrough and got it. Twice. Praise JESUS!
7. Trusting Him for the impossible. Someone once said “Aim for the impossible,so that without God you cant do it at all.” Oh this is impossible all right. Well atleast without Him.
8. I got a Job. I work for the Church now, in the Media team.
9. My Dad is coming down next month. Mostly Im getting a new Pc. Or a laptop if I am lucky. Really lucky.
10.I’ve cut down on Pepsi. Trying to stick to ‘once a week only’. God is faithful.
Have a Great Day everyone.
Pictures by CNN IBN.
I suppose if we couldn’t laugh at things that don’t make sense, we couldn’t react to a lot of life. 
